Saturday, March 4, 2017

Poongatru Thirumbuma | Muthal Mariyathai | Tamil Film Song

Absolutely love this song....Don't know your tears starts rolling down my cheeks whenever I listen to this song...



Sunday, February 19, 2017

Did I burn all my energy in planning ?


Sometimes you feel like doing a lot of things.

And if you have attended one of those capacity building conferences, you will definitely decide to plan your each step.

Because the expert who spoke at the conference says: “ the goal will continue to remain distant unless you plan.”

Thoroughly motivated, I decide to plan...

I make daily planner, weekly planner, monthly planner, Annual planner and many other planners on my drive and forget most of the planners barring the basic ones.

I feel as if am almost there.

Then one fine morning, I find myself sitting and blinking at the wall, doing nothing.

After a couple of days, I look at your petrified self and says “ Why don't you just get out of the house and get some fresh air.”

“ Why should I? ” I ask.

Pat comes the reply of my ' self ' “ Because you have burnt all your energy in planning.”



Saturday, December 31, 2016

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

I will not delete this blog



This blog always helped me to unravel myself. Without any inhibition, I jotted down everything - my confusions, apprehensions, aspirations and what not. I hardly resorted to a second person narrative. I have been truthful to this blog just like I am truthful to myself.


Many a time, I had begun posts without even knowing how I would end them. Surprisingly, in the end, they revealed to me innumerable things which I was unaware of myself. The blog always helped me to evolve as a person. Since, I became busy with my work, updating blogs also decreased. But never did once, I thought of deleting it. It had already become a part and parcel of my life.



Just a few days ago, I had this strange feeling that I shouldn’t keep this blog. Why? Because for the first time, I felt I was at peace with myself. So many things happened in my life that I started looking at it with a different perspective. It was a surprising revelation at all levels.



 A lot things changed both professionally and personally. The once redundant life started overflowing with energy. Suddenly, there was no confusion, apprehensions and aspirations. Why no aspirations because I started living at the moment. Everything was so clear that I began surprising myself at all levels.


I went short of topics to write. Hence, came the question - Why should I update this blog? Then there came another question - Why should I keep it? Because I never filtered my thoughts and I never tried to be politically correct. Whatever happened in my life, it was all there in the blog. So I thought it’s time to stop telling everyone about what’s going on in my life and then one day, I decided to delete the blog.



Thankfully, something happened in my life (Not that big but changed my perspective again), the very next day that I backed out from deleting it.



In life, you might be in search of so many things - love, career, fame. If you are hardworking and lucky enough, you can get everything. You might be surrounded by people who understands you in and out, but still there remains a part of yourself only you can understand. I tried several times to open it up to the person who understands you the most but in vain. I really do not know how to do it. Perhaps, only you can see that part.



It is this small part of yours that pushes you to strive for the better. This small part is going to remain with you till the end.


So I asked myself “ How can you delete this blog that has helped you to understand that ‘small part’ of yourself.”

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Thursday, September 1, 2016

Have you ever reached that moment when you can't recognize yourself ? I did



Bangalore Diary Part 4
September 1, 2016

For many years, I knew what I wanted to do with my life. Everything seemed hunky – dory. But then came a point when life stopped, just like that....... I shocked myself by stopping to recognize me. I have always been my best friend. And one fine morning, she was gone and left me to grope in the dark.  And that could be scary – VERY SCARY.


I always knew that being on the brighter side of life was a Herculean task. But I hardly left no stones unturned to make my life better.  I could easily identify my flaws, earlier. The process of rectifying them made me a stronger person. And, one fine morning, I just forgot how to do that. 


Whenever, I looked at the mirror, I could not recognize the girl in there. That might be the reason why the reflections never got registered in my mind. Another way of putting it is : “I don’t like the girl in the mirror. Because she is so lost and that’s not me.” 


Then, one day reality struck like a thunder bolt. Even the strongest woman could get tired of being strong.

I started thinking of all those personality development quotes which once made me strong but in vain.

Then came the next realization - “I was acting strong.” 

I mean…I was not in fact strong but acting as if I was strong….. Oh My God…..

 After so many years, to be precise 12 years, I shut myself in a room, switched off all the lights and started crying and crying.


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