Wednesday, December 21, 2016

I will not delete this blog

This blog always helped me to unravel myself. Without any inhibition, I jotted down everything - my confusions, apprehensions, aspirations and what not. I hardly resorted to a second person narrative. I have been truthful to this blog just like I am truthful to myself.

Many a time, I had begun posts without even knowing how I would end them. Surprisingly, in the end, they revealed to me innumerable things which I was unaware of myself. The blog always helped me to evolve as a person. Since, I became busy with my work, updating blogs also decreased. But never did once, I thought of deleting it. It had already become a part and parcel of my life.

Just a few days ago, I had this strange feeling that I shouldn’t keep this blog. Why? Because for the first time, I felt I was at peace with myself. So many things happened in my life that I started looking at it with a different perspective. It was a surprising revelation at all levels.

 A lot things changed both professionally and personally. The once redundant life started overflowing with energy. Suddenly, there was no confusion, apprehensions and aspirations. Why no aspirations because I started living at the moment. Everything was so clear that I began surprising myself at all levels.

I went short of topics to write. Hence, came the question - Why should I update this blog? Then there came another question - Why should I keep it? Because I never filtered my thoughts and I never tried to be politically correct. Whatever happened in my life, it was all there in the blog. So I thought it’s time to stop telling everyone about what’s going on in my life and then one day, I decided to delete the blog.

Thankfully, something happened in my life (Not that big but changed my perspective again), the very next day that I backed out from deleting it.

In life, you might be in search of so many things - love, career, fame. If you are hardworking and lucky enough, you can get everything. You might be surrounded by people who understands you in and out, but still there remains a part of yourself only you can understand. I tried several times to open it up to the person who understands you the most but in vain. I really do not know how to do it. Perhaps, only you can see that part.

It is this small part of yours that pushes you to strive for the better. This small part is going to remain with you till the end.

So I asked myself “ How can you delete this blog that has helped you to understand that ‘small part’ of yourself.”

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Anita said...

I'm glad you didn't delete it. It is obviously still part of you. And, you've invited people to be part of it, too, like me - even though it is seldom. I (and others) would wonder about you if your blog goes.

Shalet Jimmy said...

Thanks Anita,

You are right. I have made a lot of good friends here. They were a part of my life all through these years. There were a few names which went through my head while writing this post. Shouting out a big thank you to all of you.

Love and Hugs